My Comforter, My Best Friend…. Is She Really Gone?

I shuffled down the dark hallway. Tears were pooling in my eyes, and I felt the world crumbling. Why was my world collapsing? Why should I deserve to live? I felt like a failure and I felt terrible inside and outside. I ran into my dorm room, and lay there on the bed, crying.

“Emily, is everything okay?”a concerned voice asked me. “Emily, you seem depressed. What’s wrong?”

I looked up through blurred vision to see my tall dorm mate, Celine looking at me with worry.

“No, I’m not!” I blurted out, tears streaking my already wet cheeks. “I just hate myself! I’m so fat, and I don’t have good grades. I feel like a failure!” I cried again, new tears streaming down my cheeks like a waterfall.

A hand cupped my chin and I looked up to see Celine smiling down gently at me. “Emily, you’re wonderful, and don’t ever, EVER let anybody tell you that you’re a failure. I mean, you’ve come all this way to Andrews, and you are only 18! You are so much more than you think!”

I sniffled, taking the tissue Celine had handed me. “Thank you, Celly. Thank you for always being here for me.”

Celine smiled. “You’re welcome, Em.”

We hugged and I felt better. I loved Celine, and she treated me like a big sister would. It was comforting, especially because I would get homesick often at Andrews.

Ten years later…….

“Hello, Hero!” I opened my door to find Hero, my dog greeting me enthusiastically by wiggling his tail and licking my face.

“Let’s go for a walk, Hero!” I grabbed his leash and placed it on him. I opened the door and we headed outside.

“Hold on, Hero! Let me check my mail first,” I pleaded, struggling to hold onto Hero’s leash, for he was pulling and tugging.

I opened my mailbox. “Oh, there’s a letter from Celine’s family! Let’s see what it is,” I opened the letter. My heart sank as my eyes scanned the page. I gasped. Tears came to my eyes and my vision blurred just as it had ten years earlier.

I sank to the ground, my knees trembling and knocking together. “No,” I cried. “No, it can’t be!”

Celine… is dead.. had a car accident…. her head injury….. died in her sleep…… These words whirled and turned in my brain. It couldn’t be!

I cried, oblivious to the world around me. Hero circled me, whining and nudging my face.

“It can’t be! Please tell me this is all a dream,” I cried to nobody in particular.

As the sun set, I trudged home with Hero behind me. Opening the door, my eyes fell on a picture me and Celine had taken after our graduation. Celine was smiling like an angel, and she was hugging me so tightly that I was laughing in the picture. My memories started to flow as I gazed around the room, decorated with pictures of me and Celine.

“I miss you, Celine. I will forever miss you,” I whispered as the tears started to fall. I sank to the ground once more, soaking the carpet with my tears.

Outside, the wind howled and the owl hooted. And that was the night I lost my best friend.

Hey, guys! I hope you liked that story! I like writing stories, so I decided to write one today. I know, it’s a really sad story. I was crying when I was writing. It’s all fictional, though. But I have lost several important people in my life, and this kind of relates to it. I have struggled with these losses, and it’s hard for me. But I know I have to move on, and I have. It’s just hard when you lose someone you were really attached to. One of my aunties passed away from breast cancer in 2015, and my family was friends with her ever since me and my sister were babies. I cried so much that day, I still remember. It was pretty sad. *wipes away tears* Anyways, I hoped you guys liked that story! Do you guys prefer happy stories or sad stories. Comment below! Anyways, I really have to go and do my homework. Love ya’ll, and I’ll see you next time!

Love,

Carissa ♥

How to Feel More Confident About Yourself

Hey, guys! So if you saw the title, you know that this post is about how to be more confident yourself. One time one of my friend’s mom commented, “You know, Carissa is a very confident girl.” Hahaha…. I am very confident, that’s true. I have developed my confidence over the years, mostly because of my insecurity of my body. But let’s get into this post, guys!

  1. Get out of your comfort zone!

When you go out of your comfort zone, you are trying new things that test your confidence! I always try to do things that I haven’t done so I can boost my confidence! Of course, I’m always for safety first, so remember that!

2. Hang out with more confident people

When I hang out with confident people, I find myself more confident. My dad says if you hang out with people who are positive, they will effect you, which is why it’s good to hang out with good people.

3. Always love yourself and look for ways to strengthen and practice your insecurities

This one is important! If you don’t love yourself, you feel insecure about yourself and you don’t feel confident about yourself. To practice your insecurities takes a lot of practice and patience and definitely a lot of courage! To me, my insecurity is my body. I’ve learned to love it over the years, but there are times where I break down and cry because I’m fat. But usually I love myself for who I am.

OK, guys! That’s it for today! Do you guys have any insecurities? If so, what are they? You don’t have to say it if you don’t want to. I have to go now, ’cause I have flute tomorrow and my mom’s going to be mad if I don’t stop to practice. OK, bye! ♥

Love, ♥

Carissa 😉

If You Feel Insecure About Your Body, This Post is For You!

Hey, guys! If you saw the title, you’re probably guessing that I’m going to be talking about on how you view your body. If you’re overweight, just like me, (yes, I’m overweight) keep reading! Over time I have learned to look at my body in a more positive way. In this post I will give you tips on how to overcome this negative way on viewing your body. Let’s go!

  1. Don’t compare yourself with models or skinny people

Just because people are skinny doesn’t mean that they are happy. The more you compare yourself with skinny people or models in a magazine, the more you will feel bad about your body, and you REALLY don’t want to do that. I mean, look at Cassey Ho. She used to diet and she became really skinny, but she wasn’t happy! Sure, it’s good to be fit. But listen closely to this one. You have to ask yourself when you’re skinny or fat or whatever you are, ask yourself, “Am I truly, TRULY happy?” I myself have asked myself this question WAY too many times. If the answer is no, adjust your eating or exercising until you feel happy. It doesn’t from the outside, guys, it starts from the inside. In my opinion, of course. We all have our different opinion.

2. DO NOT LISTEN TO PEOPLE’S NEGATIVE COMMENTS ABOUT YOUR BODY! (This tip is the most important!)

Guys, if anybody is telling you are fat and you look terrible, don’t listen to them! The more you listen to them, the more you hate your body! Please, please don’t do that. You should listen to more positive people. If somebody is trying to put you down, ignore them and hang out with more positive people. Most of these tips I obtain from Blogilates, aka. Cassey Ho. She is a great person who helps women and men to change the way on how they look at their body. Before I found her, I hated myself. I hated my body, everything. But when I found Cassey, I realized I needed to love my body. I realized if you look at your body in a more positive way, you will feel better about yourself. And be confident too! If you need some positive comments about your body and want to workout your body, go to Blogilates’s Youtube channel. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCIJwWYOfsCfz6PjxbONYXSg She is a very positive person and she has changed my way entirely of looking at my body. Also, she has such beautiful workout clothes! She has a clothesline, too! It’s called PopFlex.

OK, guys, that’s it for today! If any of you have encountered this before, I know how you feel. I still am struggling to lose weight, but the more you persevere, the more you can do it! You can do it if you have the determination! Just tell yourself, “I CAN DO IT! I AM STRONG!” *clears throat* Sorry. Anyways, I love you guys so much and I’ll see in the next post! Bye!

Love,

Carissa 😉

My Favorite Songs!

Hey, guys! As you guys all know, I love pop! In fact, I’m listening to Anne Marie’s song, 2002 right now. My favorite songs change a lot depending on how much I like them! Here we go, my recent favorite songs!

  1. Happier by Marshmello and Bastille
  2. Friends by Marshmello and Anne-Marie
  3. 2002 by Anne-Marie
  4. Impatience by Sam Tsui
  5. Perfect to Me by Anne-Marie
  6. A Million Pieces by Sam Tsui
  7. Despacito cover by KHS, Alyson Stoner, and Sam Tsui (I like to dance along to it)
  8. Same Old Love, same as above (again, I like to dance along to it)
  9. Then by Anne-Marie
  10. Rewrite The Stars cover by James Arthur and Anne-Marie

As you notice, I’ve been listening to quite a few songs from Anne-Marie and Marshmello! I like Anne-Marie’s voice, ’cause she has a voice that breaks, which is a voice that I like. Marshmello’s DJ skills are awesome! Anyways, I have to go. My dad is checking my math and I have to do math. UGH! I wish I could do whatever I want. *frowns* Bye!

Love,

Carissa ♥

I’m officially a part of Mellogang!

Hey, guys! As you all know, I absolutely LOVE my pop music. Recently, I’ve been listening to Marshmello. If you guys don’t know him, he’s a American DJ and produces music that is EDM. I have no idea what that is. In fact, I’m listening to his song “Happier” with Bastille. It’s so good! It was actually a hit song last year along with his song “Friends” with Anne-Marie. Warning: it has cuss words in it. I listen to the clean version. I like Marshmello so much now! He’s cute, too! So many people are trying to find out who Mello really is, but honestly, as long as he keeps making wonderful music, I don’t care. Anyways, I have to go. I have to wake up at 7:30 tomorrow. Ugh! *makes a face* Bye!

Love,

Carissa ♥ 😉

A Day In The Life Of Me!

Hey, guys! So I’m going to write a post about what I usually every day! Let’s go!

So I usually wake up around 7:00-7:30 A.M. Then I go to my bathroom and splash cold water on my face. That usually helps wake me up. I also put Aveeno lotion on my face, ’cause it helps keep my face smooth and free of acne. Then I head downstairs and drink a cup or two of warm water. Then I go to my desk and start homework. Then around 8:00-8:30, I start eating breakfast. I usually eat corn flakes with soy milk and a fruit smoothie. Sometimes I eat a bagel with vegan butter and avocado. It’s so good! My dad then leaves for work. He goes to work around 9:00-9:30. Then after eating breakfast, I wash the dishes if it’s my turn to do them. Then I go upstairs to brush my teeth and make my bed. Then I go back downstairs to start homework. By then, it’s around 9:00-9:30. Usually I do math first, (’cause it takes longer! And I’m not too smart when it comes to math, especially algebra!) then English, (eh, it’s okay) then science, (my FAVORITE!) and finally, history. (only one word . BORING! Of course, some people find history really interesting and fun. I mean, world history isn’t THAT bad. But U.S. history? Ugh!) After that, I do my IEW homework. IEW, if you guys don’t know, stands for Institute for Excellence in Writing. It helps me write better and improves my speaking skills, too!

Then it’s time for lunch! I usually do lunch by myself. Sometimes, I do vegan quesadillas with tomatoes. I use Daiya cheese. It’s vegan, and made of soy protein! It’s not that I’m lactose-intolerant, but cheese makes break out really badly. And I don’t like acne on my face! Nuh-uh. Sometimes, I eat leftovers. Then I take a break after lunch. By then, it’s 1:30-2:00. After that, I try to practice flute. Then I exercise. And you guys know how much I love Sam Tsui’s music! I usually run for about 45 minutes, and I run on the treadmill. I try to burn about 260-320 calories a day, so that means I usually run 3.5 to 4 miles a day. My record for running a mile in several minutes was running a mile in 8 minutes. Then I workout on the mat for about 20-25 minutes. I workout with Blogilates. Her channel is really awesome! Her ab workouts are torturous, but they make me feel so happy afterwards!

Then I shower. I use Head and Shoulders Anti-Dandruff Shampoo+Conditioner. It’s really good! I shower for about 20 minutes. Yeah, I know, that’s REALLY long. I sing in the shower, soooo…. that’s probably why… Hehehehehe. Then I put Aveeno lotion (again) on my arms, legs, and blah blah blah blah.. You get the point. I put a lot on ’cause I have eczema everywhere, and it’s terrible. Take care of your skin, guys! It’s not fun to have eczema, I tell you. *shakes head* Anyways, then I head downstairs to eat dinner with my sister and mom. (and dad if he got home early!) Then I brush my teeth. We do devotion, and then it’s time to go to bed! I go to bed around 9:00-9;30-ish. It’s early for some people, but anytime past 9:00 is really late for me! Then I put castor oil on my eyelashes and eyebrows. (sounds weird, but it helps them grow! It really does!) Then I put Aveeno on my face again. (yep, again!) I’m really picky about my face skincare routine. It’s not that complicated, really, compared to other people’s skincare routine. Then it’s nighty-night-night for me! Speaking of which, I’m supposed to be in bed in 10 minutes! Yikes! I have to go and love ya’ll! Bye!!

Love,

Carissa 😉

Some Species of Animals That Are Endangered

Hey, guys! So I had zero idea of write today. So, you guys knowing my passion of animals, I just had to write somethin’ about animals. Here we gooo! Of course, I am not going to talk about all of the endangered species, ’cause there are too many.

  1. Pangolins

Pangolins are extremely endangered, especially in Asia. Pangolins are being killed for their scales, skin, and meat. It breaks and shatters my heart immensely to see such beautiful and cute creatures being killed. I feel really guilty, because it’s mostly China that is part of the black market. And I’m from Taiwan, which is right next to China. Scientists have estimated that since from 2000 poachers have taken more than a million pangolins from the wild. It’s terrible! Why would anybody take such a beautiful and adorable creature? I just doesn’t understand!!!! I’m crying now. I have to take a minute.

2. Tigers

Tigers are being killed for their skin. And not only that, their habitat is being destroyed. It is shown by scientists that out of the eight subspecies of tiger, there are only six subspecies. The most endangered tiger is the Sumatran tiger. It is estimated that there is only 400-500 Sumatran tigers left in the wild.

3. Sea turtles

Sea turtles are being killed for their meat, but are mainly killed by being caught in fishing nets or being struck by boats. Also, I read in a book that in Costa Rica, when the females come to lay eggs on the sandy beach, the fishermen come and steal the eggs from the hole, and eat them! I am so mad. MAD, I TELL YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *coughs* Sorry, I sometimes lose my self-control when it comes to defending animals. It’s not good, I know. It’s just so…… *sighs* sad. Sad, indeed.

OK, guys, that’s it for today! My sister and mom are coming back from Tawian tonight! I can’t wait! Love ya’ll and keep on protecting our lovely animals that live on this planet! Bye!

Love,

Carissa 😉

A Deep, Dark, Cold Ocean……. How Could There Be Possibly Any Life Down There????? (Keep reading, readers! You’ll find out!)

Hey, guys! You guys saw the post title, and I am pretty sure most of ya’ll know, already. But if some of you don’t know, keep reading!!

Most of us think that in the deep, dark, cold ocean, there couldn’t be any life living down there! Actually, quite surprisingly, there is life down there! “How?” you exclaim. “We all know that living things need sunlight!” True, but keep reading! Come with me, and dive down into the mysterious ocean’s depths!

First of all, we must find a producer, because all of the living things on this planet are supported by producers. Let us meet our good old friend, shall we? Allow me to introduce you to him: the good old hydrothermal vent! Hydrothermal vents spew out super-heated water, that came from the heated magma under the Earth’s crust. There is bacteria and minerals in the super-heated water. And the bacteria is the producer we are looking for!

One of the creatures living near the hydrothermal vents is the tube worm. It doesn’t have a stomach or a mouth, but attaches itself onto the ocean floor. “But then how does it eat?” you ask. “It can’t survive if it can’t eat!” True, that’s exactly what I thought! But it has bacteria living inside it! The bacteria produce sugar and other nutrients Sounds totally weird and sooooooo gross, I know, but that’s how they survive in extreme conditions!

Other really cool creatures are the bioluminescence fish and other creatures! “Wait! Hold it!” you yell. “What is biolumines- whatever the word was??” Well, let me break it down for ya. Bioluminescence is kinda like a glowstick. You crack the glowstick and the chemicals mix to create a glow! “Ohhhh,” you realize. “So there is chemicals inside the creature, mixing to create a special glow?” Yes, and scientists have noticed the light is mostly blue. The creatures have not seen light, so the light is mostly blue. So even if the environment is harsh, the creatures have adapted to it! I mean, look at Antarctica! It’s so cold over there, and yet penguins and other creatures live over there! It’s amazing on how God designed these wonderful creatures! The Earth is amazing and we should protect it and its inhabitants because it is our duty to protect the amazing animals that live on it!

OK, guys. that’ll be it for this post! My sister and mom are coming back from Taiwan soon, so I’m really excited! I actually came across this source from my state test today! I had to write an essay for it on the state test, so I did and decided to do the same for my post today! I have a math state test tomorrow, so I am really nervous. *shudders* I’m really sad they don’t have science tests this year! I have to go now, guys! Love ya’ll so much! Bye!

Love,

Carissa 😉

I’m Back, America!

Hey, guys! I’m back in America right now, and I’m so happy! Back in Taiwan, it was really crowded and noisy! But here at my house, when you wake up in the morning, it’s very quiet and you can hear the birds chirping! Plus, there’s no mosquitoes. 😉 I’m still quite a bit jet lagged, but it’s slowly getting better. And guess what? I only gained a few pounds! Woohoo! Anyways, my mom said I can get a Instagram when I turn 14, which is this October, so I’ll tell you guys when I get it! I am going to be mainly posting some of my wildlife photography on my IG account when I get it, so I’m really excited! I’m going to follow all of my fave people, like Sam Tsui, (OMG, love his music so much) Robert Irwin, and Cassey Ho, aka. Blogilates. Anyways, I have to go. Bye!

Love,

Carissa 🙂