Hey, guys! Welcome to my blog dedicated to our seven boys aka. BTS! To understand why I love them so much, I thought it would be great if I wrote about how they helped.
To begin with, I am overweight. I am sure you are starting to understand how they helped me. Being overweight has and still is extremely hard on me. I always worry about what others think of me whenever we go out and I constantly ask my friends if they thought I was fat. They assured me I wasn’t, but I wasn’t so sure. I began shutting myself in my room longer than I should’ve, and I am ashamed to say this, but I started to purge and self-harm. Don’t worry, I don’t do it anymore, thanks to Jimin’s song, Promise. It wasn’t until I met BTS that I slowly began improving.
I became an ARMY in the summer of 2019, and I am not ashamed to say that they are literally my heartbeat. I’m not kidding, you guys. If I did not discover BTS, I would probably not be here today or just staring at a wall. They saved me from a pit hole of depression and anxiety. Seeing a therapist has helped me a lot, but BTS is also my other therapist. I just watched BTS’s commencement speech to the Class of 2020, and it made me cry. I am graduating to high school and will be going to a real school this fall. I am extremely nervous and anxious, but like our wise Jin said, “Take a deep breath. You may find that any moment can be turned into an opportunity. Allow yourself to take it easy. Take it one step at a time. You might discover the important things you were missing. And they’ll reach out to you….” This made me cry. Whenever I would feel sad or down or depressed or anxious or etc., I would remind myself that I needed to keep going because I knew there were seven people believing in me. Believing that I could love myself, that I could get over this with their help. With this quarantine, I have become socially anxious, but I am working on it. If you are feeling sad or down or even contemplating taking your own life, please don’t. Remember that there is someone out there who understands you, who understands how you feel. I saw this comment on a video on Youtube and I want to share it.
Your skin is not paper, don’t cut it❤
Your face is not a mask, don’t hide it❤
Your size is not a book, don’t judge it❤
Your life is not a movie, don’t end it❤
(Credits to owner of comment)
This comment touched me, and I agree with it wholeheartedly. My life has been difficult up till now, and I know there will be more trials and hurdles ahead, but I know I can do it. because I have them. Thank you for taking time to read this post. i appreciate it. I hope you BTS haters understand why BTS has helped me and so many other ARMYs so much. And if you still don’t like BTS, that’s totally fine with me. People have different opinions, and not everybody likes the same type of music. Anyways, all of you stay safe and healthy, and don’t forget to wash your hands frequently and wear a mask! Love you all, and see you on the next post! I am working on a fluffy story, so watch out for it!